90 percent of the people I know bail on 80 percent of things. New years resolution, to just do it.

I spent the last five months trying to retrieve something that was long gone. I've found something incredible and I really hope nothing messes this up.

I am truely blessed with real friends. I wish I hung out with them more. You know who you are :)

All of my friends think I'm lame for liking twilight. Whatever! You guys are into retarded shit too.

COME my tan-faced children, Follow well in order, get your weapons ready, Have you your pistols? have you your sharp-edged axes? Pioneers! O pioneers!

I don't deserve to be cheated out of anything.

I wish my roommates didn't smoke weed.

its hard to type 7 fingers

If you're bored, you're boring.

A new stance

This is something I am actually planning on doing this summer. Very excited

I am still the girl who loves death cab for cutie and driving the the vous late at night, i miss the simples things life used to offer.

The only boyfriend I want wears scarfs on the crown of his head as well as his neck. CUTE!

I spend a decent amount of my days thinking about this cute guy who is in control of Grand Rapids' social enterprise as a whole. Best thing about it, its mutual

Like 100 percent serious I haven't felt this good in a long time.

Stoked on life

pretty soon

i i think i might actually hit the road. this is weird, so out of my comfort zone. but i dont think that staying here will make me feel any better. it'll just make my nights more lonely and less productive. i'd rather just work a shitty job and go to a community college somewhere where i dont need to worry about things or people that dont matter anymore :/

I am happy, that is just the saddest lie.

Wow, I am digging my own grave. This sucks, hopefully, the poles will switch tonight, or I'm out.

My best recent game "I'm a hard game to play. But you're cute and I'm drunk, and I won't lie, we've got some potential together, some good plans or whatever"

halloween

i hate that this stupid holiday is stressing me out.
my pumpkin, which also is wonderful, has no tea light.
which makes the whole thing not as memorable as i was planning.

no movie updates, besides paranormal activity, which although it is scary, i am still unsure.

i would love for some sunshine and an afternoon bike ride sometime soon, but its that time of the year again, oh well.

Ignorance the coke man, ignorance is bliss, Ignorance is love and I need that shit

Quit playing games with my heart!

Scary movies can be fun. I hope so at least.

Where the wild things are, couldve been better.

Very, very anxious to get on the road and get past Chicago traffic so Joe can drive my car. Have they invented teleporting yet? Jeez.

I cannot wait to live alone.

Work is whatever, I'm extremely hungry and very anxious. I feel like 1. Taking a smoke break 2. Earning more money 3. Doing homework 4. Being drunk?

date-ish

this week i've been pretty frisky, i think i like it. appropriately, i have been a "movie-goer" and its nice to get out of the house and do things. overworked, i can't exactly reflect on the films i have seen in the past week, but i'll leave it with, "i'm unsure".

chicago bound in a few days, unsure about it as well.
i figure its a good idea, otherwise someone would stop me, right?

fight/love

i cannot begin to describe the past week. interesting, to say the least. yet i was very rainy and i did not enjoy that.

on the drive home from work today, i noticed some red leaves. fall reminds me of saves the day, which i love, but will always remind me of him.

oh well.

i'm really hoping that i go on a nice ride this week.
things are turning around.

Questionable Times

Being broke sucks.

I mean, being lonely sucks.

I guess both.

I am the lone wolf

Maybe its just me, but ever since I moved to the West side of the city, I am changing rapidly. Whether that be for the good or the bad, regardless, it's very different. I find myself going out and cycling late at night, solo or with friends. I went so long without any of this, not saying that it was a bad thing. I was very happy with being bored. Because I was stable. I am uncomfortable with my situation for this one reason. I crave stability and no one seems to offer that.

Maybe I am the weird one. No idea

understand

i dig things that dont fit the standard. well some of the time, i spend alot of time thinking about what i am doing with my life, and i cant seem to figure it out. im self concious, broken, betrayed, yet nothing seems to be making me hit rock bottom. i think i might be getting myself in deep with something that could end up pretty bad.

or maybe things will turn around this week, who knows.

best

Cut it out, your self-inflicted pain is getting too routine
the crowds are catching on to the self-afflicted song
well here we go again, the art of acting weak
fall in love to fail, to boost your CD sales
and that CD sells yeah what a hit, you got to repeat it
you gotta sink to swim

First you dont, you dont succeed
you gotta recreate your misery
cause we all know art is hard
young artists have gotta starve
try and fail and try again
the comforts of repetition
keep churnin out those hits
till its all the same old shit

Oh, a second verse
well color me fatigued
im hiding in the leaves
in the CD jacket sleeves
tired of entertaining
some double-dipped meaning
a soft served analogy
those drunken angry slur
in 31 flavours
you gotta sink gotta sink gotta sink to swim
immerse yourself in rejection
regurgitate some sorry tale
about a boy who sells his love affairs

i woke up today seemingly upset about something. sleeping ten hours and not feeling any better than you did the day before is not exciting, or surprising i suppose. :(

upset, i just work and work and get basically nothing. that's a lie, i get a lot, it's just not what i want. what i want is literally impossible to have. :(

having your own house rules!

period, going from the south east side to the west side was the best thing i've ever done. win winw inw winwinwinwinwiwn

"I think the chain broke away
And I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine"

i'm going to be alright.

it happened

2 years of my life, not so much a waste, but more of a learning experience. rule of life, you cannot count on anyone but yourself

?

I got this by complete impulse, oops. I feel like I know I am going to get in a horrible arguement today, I'm almost 100% positive. Don't change all of your passwords and add your ex girlfriends on facebook, you must be stupid if you thought I wouldnt see it. I'm sick of this shit, I'm so ready to either completely turn my life around, or just move into my fucking house with people I would gladly chose over you. I wish that I could describe to you how torn I am about us. I can't stand you, but I can't live without you.

I'm about to leave and get Joe (or attempt to) and drive to a thousand bike shops and get some good eats.

I am such a shitty person.